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Title:	there must be a reason for everything...
Date:	2008-06-23 @ 16:04
Security:	public
Mood:	pissed off

i want to hope that there is some hidden meaning behind the shitty way i'm feeling right now. i want to blame it on hormones. so i can continue to live in complete oblivion of everything and anything that has and will happen. i can't wait to get out of this God-forsaken place and just do whatever i please. i used to think that 2 years was so little time... now i just want it to be over. because there's so much repetitiveness i can take. maybe i'm just depressed the circus is in session again.

if i did anything wrong, damn it, just tell me. don't make me guess.

i want to go back to a time and build a bridge of love
even if it hangs swaying in the breeze
waiting for time that has passed
just hanging
will my hand still reach out to the other side
while you're as cold as stone
pointing your finger, handing out blame?
while i hang
my hand reaching out together with my guilt?
i have no choice but to feel i'm wrong
i need to move on, willing to retreat
let me break away
so that i can be more careful.
you force me to analyse my actions, now i'm ashamed
i feel hurt
but i'll try to look at you, calm and self-assured
while you can't even look me in the eye
sincerity is not something everyone has.
i'm forced to feel
i'm wrong
sinning for cutting ties,
and i hang my head
even if i'm certain i did no wrong.
is this what friendship means?

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Title:	some quiz
Date:	2008-06-19 @ 11:57
Security:	public

at Suhara's request...

1) At what age do you wish to marry?
hmmm... 25? 26?
2) Study hard or play hard?
a healthy balance. though the study part is kinda missing nowdays.
3) Who is the person you trust the most?
mummy.
4) Do you think you have enough confidence?
enough to carry me through. though sometimes i wish i had the guts to be a little crazy and take a chance.
5) If you can have a dream, what would it be?
white picket fence, 2.5 kids, beautiful can be featured in Vogue interiors, etc. if you know me well enough you get what i mean.
6) Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yes. its always there, even if for whatever reason we don't see it.
7) What is your goal for this year?
As. of course.
8) Do you believe in eternity love?
(shouldn't tt be eternal?) but yes. i'm a hopeless romantic.
9) Have you broken someone's heart that he/she tried to commit suicide?
what kind of question is this? No.
1o) What feeling do you love the most?
contentment.
11) What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
that he understands and loves me.
12) What feeling do you hate the most?
guilt. regret. its a tie.
13) Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
i hope i do. but i know i can get caught up in shit and take them for granted.
14) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
love.
15) Who do you hope to be always there for you?
hmm... my significant other? my friends and family.
16) Do you believe in God?
yes.
17) Who is your best friend?
make that best friends. minah and neh (winkwink)
18) Who cares for you the most?
family.
19) Describe the person who tagged you with five words.
suhara... haha... crazy, fashion-forward, opinionated, understanding, arty
2o) Who do you love most?
my parents.

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Title:	why don't you and i...?
Date:	2008-06-19 @ 11:36
Security:	public

amusing message when i opened my tpjc.net today.

'know you love me eliza! but before you say im bored, i send you twice coz u have 4 photos and theres only 3 attachmenets available per msg. so 4/3=1.33 so i round up so 2 attachments per msg so means i need send 2 msgs as 2x2=4 in total. oh i think im crapping here eliza. and let me just point out that i AM bored and haha, i haven do my essay outline! haha. whee~~~~ (fill in the blank) is super high and bored! (((: and omg! guess what! i found a new source of entertainment! (((: i realise that besides spamming ur hp with internet sms, i can spam ur TPJC INBOX with ONLNE MSGS! arent i smart?? so innovative of me dont u think so? (((: haha. ok, being a kind soul, i shall spare you from my crappiness! bye eliza! dont miss me yea! (:'

goodness. what did i do to deserve this.

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Title:	Earth's Cry, Heaven's Smile
Date:	2008-06-09 @ 17:10
Security:	public

( if only the heart was this simple )

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Title:	:)
Date:	2008-06-04 @ 13:16
Security:	public

yesterday was interesting albeit embarrassing day. started off mundane enough with 2 hours straight of history lecture, with extra history homework at the end!
then waited around for Ham to break camp for FOUR hours. (productive though, since i managed to finish quite a bit of homework.) sat in the council room, which is a complete mess right now, with distractions from my juniors, Mark and Jimmy- who is not conducive for studying. then of course got a call from Suhara confessing her HORRIBLE deed (i will kill you, its just a matter of time!)
when finally Ham finished i was bombarded with sories about a certain person, what he wore, ate, etc. a little TMI... but its ok. stop 'flirting' Ham!
spent the whole of lunch gossiping and laughing and then on our way home, who else do we see? yup, him... i am so suay sometimes...

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